So, I kinda disappeared for a while there, huh? I decided to get myself back on here and back on track. And just love that my last post started with “I’m baaaaack!”. I was at that time but apparently not again for the next 6 months!!! Oops, sawry!
The wagon…fell off, banged my arse, got a concussion and then just lay there on the road allowing myself to be run over by several other wagons instead of picking myself up and getting on those!
No excuse, but an explanation: I moved. Far. From Ontario to New Brunswick. And it was expensive, tedious and not something we are going to repeat any time soon. My husband cleverly chose this time for his 2 month visit with his family back in Japan. Ok, ok, it was decided upon mutually because that timing made the most sense for both of us! We packed our life up together, he left the country and I dealt with the movers and moving. And believe it or not, I wanted it to work out that way for selfish reasons. Really selfish. I had in my head how things were supposed to go and I didn’t want to give up the way I saw it all in my head! Ha ha ha! Was I little OCD about it? (Or CDO, as it should be!!!) Only a little and if you were not in my head, it didn’t look like I had control over the situation at all…but there is always method in my madness, ladies and gents. I was in complete control. Just as I wanted to be.
So I moved across a chunk of the country while my husband travelled to the other side of the planet. And I stayed with amazing friends who gave me a roof for my head, a bed for my sleep, and a basement for my crap. They had insisted so I could take my time looking for a place to live and job hunt. I found the new home just before my husband came back and found a job shortly thereafter. It was a ride and a half.
Sadly, neither a calorie burning nor a point counting ride. Major oops.
But I am back. I did slowly gain all the weight back, but no more than where I had started…actually I am thankful that I am at least 2 pounds under where I had been when I started this blog. Just the same, not letting myself off that easily. The old starting point no longer counts in my opinion; my current weight will be my official starting point for beginning again!
The point counting starts again tomorrow. And no giving up, no excuses. The major upheaval in our lives has past, we are settled and routine has taken hold. Time to get back to where I had been before and keep going! While I would love to join WW to go to meetings, my current budget is looking at me saying, “Uh, I don’t THINK so!”, therefore I will push myself to get back on track online and keep at it.
I missed everyone! Watch it…I am going to be stalking your blogs, looking for inspiration, motivation, conversation and mainly just to be back!!!
Here we gooooooo!!!
Another week has come and gone and although this past week was something of a fail, it was not as epic a fail as I thought.
I stayed within my points and calorie counts on both WW and MyFitnessPal, yet at one point during the week when I gave in and decided to weigh myself, it appeared that I had put on 5 pounds!!! I almost fainted and got so angry at myself! I sort of feel like I don’t know what I did wrong, but looking at some of my food choices, I think I gave in to things that I didn’t need to give in to as often as I did. I didn’t run out to a fast food joint or anything like that, but even though I didn’t exceed the limits set for me, I went for fewer fruits and veggies than I have been. That is ok, it was a slap in the face to myself (insert hilarious mental picture here) and having experienced one setback means that I don’t ever want to experience it again!
I worked hard to get back on track and ended up taking off 3 of those pounds before my weigh day. So, I have to report that I had a net gain of 2 pounds (said with deep sigh and hanging of head in a resigned, sad kind of way). Not as bad as 5 pounds, but not as good as a loss of 2 or more! I am firmly back on the wagon this week, buckled in, holding on and don’t want to fall off again anytime soon!! The things I am going to tweak are: making sure that I consistently ensure I drink a full amount of water every day and gobbling up lots of plant life (if you suddenly got a mental image of a cartoon giant me wreaking havoc on a jungle that I am towering over, rest assured, you are not alone…I thought the exact same thing!) to ensure more efficient fuel burning. Oh, and walking a lot more. Like tons.
Speaking of walking, I think my recent (two days ago) trip to Toronto played a big role in helping to clear off some of that weight that caused such panic, fear and all around mental anguish (<–have we not seen this type of drama queen-like exaggeration somewhere before?). My husband had to go up for the day for work, so I decided it was a good excuse to tag along and spend the day doing my own thing, just wandering around, exploring with no one else to bore with my aimless wanderings, no time constraints other than catching the train at the end of the day, finding a cafe to have tea in or a restaurant to stop at and nibble on some lunch. I did both. While not a cafe, I did head to a McDonald’s that I know has outlets for people to plug in things such as mobile phones one used too much on the train so are now really low on battery power before it was even noon. Oh, and at that Rotten Ronnie’s, I managed to be there for zero WW points! I ordered a tea and nothing more. In the restaurant category, I found a little sushi restaurant to eat at as well and thoroughly enjoyed a really low cal lunch.
All in all, I sometimes tend to be a little daft like a dog who just doesn’t stop doing what it enjoys and so does it beyond the point of reason (Stupid dogs: play, swimming, etc. Stupid me: walking on concrete for hours). I walked all over downtown T-dot and well, behold the result of ignoring my angry feet when they pleaded with me to stop:
Yep, that is what happens when left to my own devices to explore and wander without a goal or a plan. Although walking around on concrete that much is not the greatest feeling for the tootsies, I was so happy to see those numbers!
Oh, and the train to Toronto leaves really early in the mornings. So early the sun doesn’t even think it is right to be up at that time! I love it when the sun does start to come up though. I am always trying to take pictures of the sunrise. That particular morning it was amazing! Before it appeared over the horizon, a beam of orange light was shining straight up, like a spotlight being shone into the sky at a movie premiere (or from a pachinko parlour). When I snapped, the way the camera caught the light made it look very different in the picture. But absolutely brilliant!
Well, off I go to get my solid night’s sleep! Gotta get more pounds off again!
I will just leave you with this question:
We are supposed to drink 8 glasses of water each day. Do other liquids count toward that? Let me know what you know or think.
While Tuesdays are supposed to be my weigh-in days, I couldn’t resist the temptation to jump on a day early…ok, who am I kidding…I have been jumping on my new scales constantly. Bad idea, I know because as fascinating as it is to see how much one’s weight can fluctuate day to day and even within one day, it can also be a little depressing. Depressing when I see the scales go up, thrilling when the numbers go back down. But mostly depressing because being able to obsessively check my weight that often reminds me that I really need a life!!!! Seriously, it sometimes is just something to do! I did the same sort of thing a few years ago when I was in hospital for a week when I lived in Japan. Next to the bedside, in a little holder on the wall, was a thermometer. I took my temperature about every 10 minutes just because I had nothing else to do! But I digress…
So, I was sad to see that as of today, I was up 1.5lbs. On one hand, I am disappointed, on the other hand, I am reminding myself not to stress, I am sure to lose that and maybe a little more by next week. I am actually feeling more determined than discouraged! Determined. Not stubborn. Not at all. And no need to ask my husband and family about their opinions on that.
I am happy to report that I am no longer pedometerless any more!! (<–I don’t always use odd words, but when I do, I use words that aren’t real.) I hit Walmart and plucked that $9 pedometer from the little pedometer section like I knew what I was doing.
I also got one step further in getting organized for the week. Yeah, I portioned and packed up crunchy snacks. Like a boss. I measured and ziplocked like nobody’s business! I had purchased some corn chips with flax seed (because flax seeds make them super healthy, of course.) and some sunflower seeds. Now, I know sunflower seeds are supposed to be evil because of their high fat content, despite the fact that it is mostly good fat. But I measured out 1/4c portions as opposed to the 1/3c as outlined in the nutritional information (and once I saw it in the wee snack sized baggy, that 1/4c is a little more than I usually eat anyway).
As for prepping actual meals for the week, well, I bought groceries. That is a start, right? I am still on the spontaneous side of the fence when it comes to meals. But I swear, one of these days, I will take some stuff out of the fridge and maybe cut some of it up. If I feel like it. And if I can find the knife. And the cutting board. And if I feel like it (did I already say that?). When it is cut up, then there is no turning back…something will have to be made.
And in case of the event of actually making something after said cleaving of food, I did buy containers that were the perfect portion size, so that is something! I have decided to make a few large batches of food on Sundays, then freezing/refrigerating them in single sized portions. Easy for days when we don’t feel like cooking up something good!
We also don’t have a car. Which means, to make a long story short, we spent almost three hours on our feet today, walking around. That earned me a fair few WW points! Part of that errand-running was to get my new pedometer, so I have no idea how many steps I took today but I am guessing the tally would be anywhere between 10,000 and a lot!
I am now also competing with a friend. She is getting back in shape and has set herself a goal for May 1st. I decided it would be great motivation to compete with each other and see who can successfully reach a decided-upon goal for that date. She is eating right and has started at the gym. She also has been using “My Fitness Pal”, which she encouraged me to use as well. I checked it out and love the food database…so much food info in there, and it tracks calories! I love my WW program but the database for food leaves a bit to be desired, I think (anyone else on WW feel the same way? Or not??). I think these two programs could work very well for me.
Well, it is another week, and another shot at getting even further along in my journey! Loving life this week!!
I believe I mentioned something about a pedometer. And walking 10,000 steps every day. I’m getting there. It is a work in progress. I bought the pedometer…I swear! It is indeed in my possession. I didn’t even go for the cheapest on as I usually would…I bought a fancy-schmancy one that does a bunch of cool stuff. But one of those things is entering your weight. And the default weight it starts at is 50 pounds. What? Really? Are they marketing these to elementary school children now? Do they have any idea how long I have to sit there and hold down that stupid button to enter my info? Oh my. Should have gone for the $9 one. But seriously, it is really cool! It has a function for going back and forth between walking and running. Because I have aspirations, guys. No marathons. Absolutely not. I hate running; I just want to be able to say I can run more than 10 feet with out collapsing in a coma brought on by oxygen deprivation (<–note the drama queen-like exaggeration).
After a day of not bothering to set it up, I did so about noon today. I put it on and went out for a brisk walk in the -5 degree sunshine. I intended to walk for an hour at least but gave up after 40 minutes because, you know…-5!!!! I wore the pedometer for the rest of the afternoon and was really upset after checking it at one point and finding I was only 4% to my goal. That is when I discovered I had set my goal on the pedometer for 100,000 steps. I know we should always aim to set the bar high but uh…yeah…gotta fix that. Anyway, it was a rude awakening to not reach the goal today. I used to be able to rack up anywhere from 12,000 to 14,000 steps per day…without going for a walk. That was just how much I was moving in my regular daily routine. Now, I don’t have very much to occupy my time, so, I am moving far less and have to go out of my way to get the extra activity. So, tomorrow, I will wear the pedometer as soon as I get up and see how much better I can do at my challenge! Of course, I might wait until after I do my morning workout, you know, just in case I reach the 100,000 steps by accident from jumping around so much.
So after my walking around today, I ended up at the library. I know, I know, you are all thinking, “What? All that and she is an intellectual too?! Amazing!” [insert slow clap here] While sitting and reading some books – and they weren’t even picture books! – I suddenly realized that as intellectual as I was trying to be, I somehow was
stupid busy enough to forget to have lunch. [insert face palm here] As you may imagine, I was absolutely staaarrrrrving after a couple of hours hitting the books (not literally, that would just be weird). With my ravenous hunger and knowing I still had a TON of points left available, I came dangerously close to ordering a pizza…and I could have, without any trouble points-wise. Then I remembered that would mean leftover pizza. So, as much as that treat would have been great today, I just couldn’t live with the thought of continuing to eat it over the next few days. I managed to fill up on healthier goodness in my kitchen and was much happier with what I ate, even if it wasn’t quite as much as I should have had. Stupid lunch-forgetter!
I did have lunch out yesterday. It was good. Smoked salmon and spinach with pasta. I followed the tips from WW and asked for a take-away box when I ordered (you know, to put half of your meal in the box straightaway so you don’t eat it all). I did feel odd doing that and felt guilty that I didn’t apologize for what the server must have thought was weird, hippy psychic madness, knowing that I would be taking food home before I even got my food! As soon as my meal arrived, I put more than half in the box so that I was left with more healthy than carby on my plate. I gave what I boxed up, to my husband when I got home. He was thrilled and is extremely grateful to WW for such tips, because most times that I am out with friends but not him, he gets, as a consolation prize, what I bring home. There really isn’t a world outside the demands of his stomach, as far as he is concerned. Best guy to bring to a potluck party; no one has to worry about lugging home any leftovers! Hahaha!
Well, onward and upward…er, downward, since we are talking about inches and pounds!
Holy wow, folks!! I have been doing WW for one week now and really don’t feel like I have been cutting back much on eating. So, after having posted about my confusion with being allowed to eat so much…or what feels like so much when you are trying to go down in size…I had quite a surprise this morning.
I lost three inches overall!!!! I lost an inch on my waist, bust and hips! YES!!! No change in my arms and legs (weird, because my limbs are doing all the exercise!), but I can deal with chunky limbs if my waist line gets back to where I want it! The rest will follow eventually.
I have no idea if I have lost any weight. I don’t own any scales. Perhaps I should, since I am doing Weight Watchers, not Size Watchers. But as much as I like to watch the numbers go down on the scales, I get just as much, if not more, of a thrill from seeing the changes in the inches I lose and the way my clothes fit (and eventually, won’t fit anymore…in a good way!). Point I can make about that is, years ago, I was going to a gym quite faithfully. It was a student special for eight months. At the end of those months, I was really upset when we did my final weigh-in and I had only lost five pounds. I was crushed and quite frankly embarrassed. I thought I was doing so well. Then the trainer got out the tape measure. When she finished and compared the numbers, I had ended up losing a total of 17 inches overall. She had never seen that before…so many inches but so few pounds. Of course part of it was likely due to gaining muscle after losing fat, but I am pretty sure it’s just my make-up. I used to and probably always will, weigh a little more than people the same size as me.
Sooo…my biggest priority when it comes to results are the inches I lose.
The exercise I am getting in is not very difficult. I am making it a priority to get outside every day for at least 30 minutes of brisk walking. I have gotten lazy when it comes to getting down on the floor at home and toning, but not beating myself up over it, because I will do it; I know I have to. Besides, seeing results makes me want it more!
And so it has begun.
So, I’m still onboard with doing the Weight Watchers thang. It is working great so far! Almost too good. Is it just me or are there like, 500 kazillion extra points to play with? I have my daily allotment, which is just great for me, actually! There are occasionally days where I have to figure what else I can eat to use them up. But then, we get a weekly allotment of extra points. For no apparent reason, from what I can figure out.
I did WW a little over 10 years ago, had a daily allotment of points and could earn extra through exercise. I could use them sparingly day by day or even save those up to splurge big on one day. Oh don’t get me wrong, those are still there! I earn a few every day. I walk a lot. Especially yesterday, when I went to Toronto for the day. For fun. Because I love walking around for an entire sunless day in the freezing cold, wondering if my nose has turned black from frostbite yet, holding my breath so much as I walk by the frequent groups of smokers huddled together shivering on their breaks getting their fix, that I might pass out from lack of oxygen; all in the name of fun, spontaneous city exploration looking for adventure around the next corner, thinking I should have done this in the summer instead, moron that I am…
But I digress…
What was I saying??
Oh yes…so I get extra points for exercise. I earned about 100 kajillion yesterday (a good fraction of 500 kazillion) from walking for nearly 4 hours (I was an honest little Do-Bee and subtracted for time that I sat for lunch and sat on a park bench on Toronto Island, on Wards Island, wondering how the ducks can stand to be in that water).
But I still have my weekly no-reason-at-all tally on top of that. I guess they have figured out the regular points in a way that the extra make sense? I don’t know how the math on that works. What I do know, is if I were to use the free extra points and the earned extra points, I’m pretty sure I would have already gained about 10 kajillion pounds by now. And another thing I know is, if I get to smaller sizes with this kind of eating, I am going to be thrrriiilllled!!!
So, for now, I am sticking strictly to the regular daily allotment and will consider any exercise a great contribution to the cause. Just wondering, folks out there, have you done it or are you doing it now? (WW, I mean!) Would love to know your thoughts and input!