Posted by koyoandi
Today is a day of celebrating the little things in my life.
Celebration #1: I am alive. I don’t mean it in the same way that my incredibly healthy grandfather used to say, “Oh, I’m hanging in there. But I might day any day now”, for about 20 years. I mean I survived the elements outside. It is nasty out there. It is very mild out (+2C, to get up to +8C), which means, on this miserable grey day, it is raining, which is melting the snow and there are puddles everywhere. In many spots, there is no avoiding the puddles, only seeking to cross them in the shallowest spot possible. The treacherous part is the ice. I went out thinking that the pavement and sidewalks looked wonderfully bare; free from ice and snow, just wet. I quickly discovered that layer of water and those puddles were hiding a very thin, very dangerous layer of ice at the bottom. You cannot see it at all and thus cannot tell which areas are slippery and which are not. I went out to meet some other job seekers at a cafe today, which should have been a five minute walk from my apartment. It took me a little over 15 minutes to get there and my feet were soaked through in that short distance. (Note to self, discount store winter boots that look very stylish, usually are just that, stylish. Not leak-proof. Spend the money next time, cheapo! Arg.) But I made it there and back without falling and cracking my head open. Yay me!
Celebration #2: My night out was cancelled. Only an idiot would be happy about a girls’ night out being shot down at the last minute, right? I was supposed to meet some friends at a pub near my apartment, for $2 taco night. I was looking at that as a celebration because I have been doing so well and knew I would be able to exercise great control at eating a modest portion. Eating what I want but not really sabotaging my efforts. I was going to avoid alcohol…or at least limit myself to one drink only. However, for stupid reasons (like people having to work late at their jobs, pfffft!), we are postponing until next week. And it doesn’t bother me at all! I am actually relieved because under it all, I wanted just one more week to make it to a milestone that would make me REALLY happy and want to reward myself. Don’t get me wrong…I don’t feel like I am depriving myself at all. I am actually enjoying what I am eating and feel great. But it is that great feeling that is reward in itself and keeps me going and makes me actually want to not eat out!!! (What??? Who said that???) So since I cannot celebrate going out, I choose to celebrate staying in!
Celebration #3: It was my weigh-day! What the…really? That is worth celebrating??? Yes, I was happy about getting on the scales today. No, I am not off my head. In fact, I am beginning to look forward to it each week now! It is like a little game to see just how I did this past week and a mini-rush of anticipation to see what the numbers hold for me when I look down. I am pleased to report I lost another 1.5lbs this past week and that is a total loss of 8.5lbs. Do I wish it was faster? Yes. But am I pleased to see a smaller number each time I step on the scales? You bet your sweet a…uh…tooth, I am!! And I keep reminding myself that if I had given up just because it is slow, I wouldn’t have seen those numbers change at all, or worse, I could have possibly seen them go up! (shudder) So, circling back to #2, I am glad that tonight ended up cancelled, because I would love to go out knowing I have passed the 10lbs mark. And if I keep this up, I am sure I will be there next week!
Only thing that I am sad about right now, is I doubt I will be working much on my quest for 10,000 steps today. But I have been achieving that quite consistently, so one day off won’t kill me. Besides, with that ice out there, going out and trying to do it, I might wind up with an injury which would mean many days of not getting out!